Diary of an Emotion

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Here I am waiting in this fertile void. I am empty without expression yet full of potential. In time I will be sucked into the experience of some living being through the vacuum of their powerful thought and transform into an emotion. I never know where I am going and each trip is unique. I do know from past experience if an individual feels good, like the emotion of happy, I move quickly. I am silky smooth, light, and tingly. Once the mind creates me, I rapidly disperse out to the body with a current of information where I am reffered to as "a feeling".

There's an emotional pyramid /\ that holds a variety of feelings. If you had to break ALL emotions into just three categories the base__ of the pyramid would harbor fear, guilt, depression, shame. Suspended in the middle -- would be anger, worry, stress, frustration. And floating at the top ^ is appreciation, knowing, joy, and love. It makes no difference to me which I become- I am just the information of emotion and my journey depends solely on the actions of the particular individual who created me.

When I become those lower denser emotions people usually label me as "BAD" or "negative" cause I do not feel good inside their bodies. But at this point it's too late, as their mind has already birthed the thought of me and I'm here. So instead of feeling me FULLY and COMPLETELY they may refuse or resist me. This resistance can create blockages that trap me in the body and produce a type of "emotional constipation". Like food, I am NOT meant to stay in the body but to travel through. This natural and essential process is best understood by children. Babies and young kids ALLOW ALL their feelings to be felt and expressed. But gradually they get taught things like "suck it up" or give into the constant appeals of "please don't cry" or threatening demands to "stop crying this instant!" Over time this unnatural conditioning produces a cultural anesthetic and teaches them NOT TO FEEL so they gradually become numb (to varying degrees). As a result this forces me to become more creative and intensify my efforts to get my message across. Quite literally I can become a real pain in the neck or anything else that will get peoples attention.

TRULY, I MEAN NO HARM and any extraneous pain is self inflicted! If you only understood how to use me the way I was intended- your quality of life would improve significantly. I am an important part of your emotional guidance system and I operate similar to the GPS system in your car. I am calibrated with Divine perfection and ALWAYS accurate. When you veer off course from who you really are (loving, kind, happy, optimistic, light hearted) I am the warning signal that will notify you to make corrections.
Here I go, I am getting closer. I can feel the pull from the vortex of a some one's mind reverberating with intense thoughts....)))) ) )"Damn he's such an ass@*!", "Mean people suck ", "How dare he point the finger at me.... he ought to take a good look in the mirror at himself ........"
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((¸¸.·´ .·´ -:¦:-~·´..***''~~`` -:¦:- oooOOH.. I am morphing and filling up with a heavy dark energy that is throbbing. This individuals thoughts created anger, resentment, and blame therefore I must become the exact feeling to represent her thinking. .....
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((¸¸.·´ .·´ -:¦:- OOOooo ....I am starting to move~·´..***''~~`` -:¦:- YES! This person knows. SHE IS FEELING ME! After holding on for awhile she decided she doesn't want me sticking around. She's letting out the anger ...she's so mad she could spit... she's blaring out a few explicit words .....now a roaring scream that escalates in pitch and collapses into a deep surrendering sob. As she cries she releases the resistance. And somewhere in the space of this relief she knows why I am here. I remind her she has STRAYED FROM HER TRUE SELF. I reminder her of how hard and painful it feels not to love. My mission complete I can now exit through her waterfall of tears ....Wheeeee!!!!! I may or may not return..... it will all depend on how she thinks. *NOW SCROLL UP AND FIND THE MUSIC PLAYLIST (in a purple box) LISTEN TO THE FIRST SONG WITH YOUR EYES CLOSED!!! Copyright Positivley Kimber Blog 2009 at thedivineblessing.blogspot.com

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